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16 November 2012 @ 05:15 pm
life's bgm  
Unadulterated loathing

For your face, your voice, your clothing
Let’s just say, I loathe it all
Every little trait however small
Makes my very flesh begin to crawl

With simple utter

There’s a strange exhilaration
In such total detestation
It’s so pure, so strong
Though I do admit it came on fast
Still I do believe that it can last
And I will be loathing, loathing you my whole life long

- What is this Feeling, OST - Wicked the Musical

What is appropriate life background music? This fits me so much right now. Ha, I think I finally found my life enemy if there's such a thing. lol I never hated anyone this much before. Yes, hate. My feelings escalated that quickly I can't control it. And I thought I was a pretty relaxed, patient and, kind of 'my pace' type of person. 

I remember hearing from some people (read: Chico, Delamar and Gino of The Morning Rush) that if you hate someone so much it means something else. Like you are probably jealous of something they have or how they live their life. I want to deny that and disagree with that completely. I don't like the thought of me being jealous with anything that person has. I'm going to deny this to death and analyze and defend logically my hatred. Everything just to prove that my feelings of hatred towards this person are genuine hatred, and can't be translated to anything else.